What am I trying to control or bend to my will? My Awakening? My energetic upgrades? A new way of being? My integration?

Your awakening is your experience. You are trying too much to make sense of it. Forcing the path. Forcing a “right way” that your ego think it should fit. Into a mold, an experience, based on beliefs of others. Remember that enlightenment experiences is not about a defining moment. Enlightenment is a life long journey. Not an event. It is a series of experiences. Of lessons.

Stop comparing or finding truth in others. Your wisdom comes from you.

And yes. You are experiencing universal energy.

Do you see the synchronicities? The Laws? There is a divine plan you co-created with God. The Universe. With Creator.

Why?

Each lifetime you experienced showed you different ways of being. Different teachings. Different experiences. So that your experience and understanding of the holistic picture of the lessons that will bring you closer to your divinity.

Your Dharma.

So its okay to soften. Its okay to surrender. Trust yourself. You are safe.

Prayer is talking. Meditation if listening. You will find your way. Be patient.

The integration is taking steps and leaps of faith that you may fear. And remember, if you are scared, you are probably going in the right direction.

Just trust that you have everything you need to align to your source energy. Your enlightenment experience.

In Love. In Light. In Joy. In Compassion.